Grades

Sophia went to HongKong today! I actually want October to come fast. Not because it is my birthday month. Or rather I call it a month of 'reaping' Yes. I reap what I sow. I can't wait to get my results back. It's the best way to reflect my effort. Everything that I've worked hard for during the entire semester depends on that. I will be really disappointed, yes I will if I did not show any improvement with regards to my grades. No one can understand this because most of my friends do not want their results back. I have confidence in myself that I will improve. Be it a small improvement or a huge one, it really means a lot to me. I will feel that I am a step closer to my goal. My university goal. And, I will continue to work hard and improve when the next semester begins. No matter how much I hate school. I do not want history to repeat itself. Back to that night when I receive my O level results. The feeling is torturous and unbearable. I NEVER WANT THIS FEELING BACK AGAIN. NEVER. I want to have the feeling of success. The feeling that I have a bright future waiting for me. The fabulous feeling when I receive good grades. My first 49/50 in primary school, 1st in class. My first A for an Amath test in sec4 from and F9. I WANT THAT FEELING. The feeling that I can't explain with words...