Year 2 Semester 2 holiday.

Decided to jot this down because I do not want to forget this feeling.. One more week and my school is going to start. I would be an official year 3 student. For the first time in my poly life, i felt excited for school, to start my new semester. Not thinking that I need to score and do well. But I thought about spending time with my classmates. Jp and kc. My last holiday of my poly life is ending, my last semester (Mugging sem) of poly life is starting.. I need to treasure this last semester as I might not get any more chances to mug if i do not enter SIT.. Well.. haha WHAT IS MEANT FOR YOU, WON'T PASS YOU BY. Ok, the holidays. I have not idea how to describe this holiday, but i enjoyed every single bit of my time for the pass 5 weeks. From making new friends, meeting new people (students, cci people), climbing out of my shell, inspire, learning, and doing things that I never imagined myself to do. I WENT TO CLUB. HAHA. Inspiring students, teaching them what i learnt, seeing them win, feels damn good. Enjoyed every camp I went, every single student i met. Christ church sec, gan eng seng and pasir ris crest sec. haha. I am their eyecandy. lol Met people like isabel chia, fish, josh, darren, raymond, Yanto, fahmy, amir, shahrul, min yi, esther. I felt like i matured a lot from all these exposure.. Ee hai en is in canada but I talk to her for almost everyday. Love this feeling. I'm meeting sophia for dinner this fri. Missed her. Met jp and kc for buffet! :-)

BFC 47

BFC just ended! Made new friends! ESP SiHui I like her a lot! It's like the moment we talked, we clique really well! more new friends like Sherry, Hulklebarry, Vanessa, Aaron, Gary. My first job will be at Anderson pri! I'm on my own! Hope I see familiar people! And I saw Phil. Pam's bf. it's totally her type. Haha

Grades

Sophia went to HongKong today! I actually want October to come fast. Not because it is my birthday month. Or rather I call it a month of 'reaping' Yes. I reap what I sow. I can't wait to get my results back. It's the best way to reflect my effort. Everything that I've worked hard for during the entire semester depends on that. I will be really disappointed, yes I will if I did not show any improvement with regards to my grades. No one can understand this because most of my friends do not want their results back. I have confidence in myself that I will improve. Be it a small improvement or a huge one, it really means a lot to me. I will feel that I am a step closer to my goal. My university goal. And, I will continue to work hard and improve when the next semester begins. No matter how much I hate school. I do not want history to repeat itself. Back to that night when I receive my O level results. The feeling is torturous and unbearable. I NEVER WANT THIS FEELING BACK AGAIN. NEVER. I want to have the feeling of success. The feeling that I have a bright future waiting for me. The fabulous feeling when I receive good grades. My first 49/50 in primary school, 1st in class. My first A for an Amath test in sec4 from and F9. I WANT THAT FEELING. The feeling that I can't explain with words...

Back.

Oh. Hi. I stopped blogging since a year ago. Or probably more than that. Yup. I'm back. Cause its semester break. And I have plenty of time. Trying to carve out my own history. So that I have something to read when i grow older. Probably. Haha. Ok. School. Its going well. As of how I planned it would be like. GPA improving. Hope the school will send me to UK for internship, I really need that for my university studies. Yup, for a person like me. Its hard for me to trust people, somehow. But I kind of found a friend in Poly. Sophia. She has been with me since the start. I think one of her is probably enough to make my poly life amazing. Although there are still so many things in poly I am unhappy of. She is the one that made everything well and happy. I'm just lucky I guess. To know someone like her. I'm starting work soon. I hate school though. Poly life is tough as heck. Its a matter of surviving or drowning. No true friendship happening in class. Sophia is not my classmate. Its a tough competition, not only about studies, about mind games and relationships. It probably took a lot of guts from me to accept the fact that I'm on my own in poly. I'll do my utmost best, from what I can, where my abilities and determination bring me to. As far as I can go, I will go. I'm enjoying my holidays. A lot. Spending more time with my friends and family. Especially my folks. Probably spending the last phase of life with grand dad. This is how fragile life could get. I need to be with mom to overcome this obstacle with her. Helped grand dad exercise the other day, it reminds me of those days he gave me bananas whenever I visited him. When he was still strong and healthy. And right now, he is bed ridden. At the blink of an eye, time flew. That night, my mind was flooded with memories of grand dad. It was 3 in the morning, I cried and cried. I come to realize that I have to treasure every single person around me. Especially my parents. Although my family is not rich, my parents do not have everything I dreamt that I wanted, they are the best miracle that happened in my life. My kind of perfect. :-) Catching up with a lot of movies, dramas, variety shows! I have no money. No, I have money. I just feel that I should not spend it on SHINee world2 although I want to see the boys badly. I have to be sensible and save up. Ya thats all. I've been studying a lot. So, nothing much happened in life. Soon. I'll update often. I will!

Went out to meet Lau and Oph today! Yup enjoyed myself. Oph went for like a naval piercing! She can't do vigorous exercise for a few months. Well, it's still worth it right? Coolgalz94. HAHAHA. Walked around Orchard till my legs hurt. :/ I saw Jayley at Atrica, recognized her by her unique hat. Walked in and asked about the price, just to take a closer look at her. Whoo! She remembers me! Replied me tweet!HAHAHA. Happy not! DUHH! (Tadah! :D )

Met mummy for dinner, she bought a blender for papa. He was overjoyed! Surprised dad! Cus his blender spoiled a couple of weeks ago. Hahaha.

I'm just lazy to upload photos. I shall rant. Not many people will see this. I don't like to rant on twitter, hundreds of people will see it. I don't want them to judge me thinking that i'm an emo kid. Well, I need a place to rant. If I tell others, they will think I'm weird, worst still no one will understand. Hahaha
URGHHHH. Liking fb status, commenting on them, following on twitter, adding randomly, chatting. K, its my fault. I should'nt have shown so many of those. I brought it upon myself! Yay.

Okay I enjoyed myself today, (well, its alil blur)

Cheryl is back, she's fine. I'm glad. ^^

So annoying. When someone cancelled on you at the very last minute. I prioritize you and cancelled on my friend just to go out with you, just because I realized I have not been spending a lot of time with you. And you cancelled on me last minute. It's not the first time. I have been looking forward to go out with you and you just fucking cancelled on me like that. Not giving me a few days of notice, just a freaking text message to go with. And you expect me to not get angry? What am I to you? Why can't I get angry? I cancelled oh Ahfiqah because of you! I feel so bad towards her now. Thanks. I will not talk about the facebook thing. You are in no position to feel abandoned or negleted. Tyvm.